Me Myself & I

it's always me. always my fault, my attitude. mv reactions. i 'm alwavs the one expected to apologize, even when i'm the one hurting. i'm the one who has to swallow my pain just to keep the peace, the one who questions herself late at night, wondering what did i wrong this time. my feelings are called "too much," my silence is called "attitude," and my breaking point is treated like a flaw instead of a cry for understanding. i say sorry even when my heart is heavy, even when all i wanted was to be heard, not blamed. and slowly, i start believing mavbe i reallv am the problem not because i am, but because it's easier for everyone else if i carry the weight alone. I keep trying to give alot of chances hoping that one day he gonna change , I keep trying to understand the thing that hurts me alot just to keep you in my life. But then nothings changes its getting more worst. I can't sleep at night my heart is ache 💔 and its too heavy to breath sometimes and my brain keeps me waking up and always remains me everything of what i saw and hurt me. My brain and my heart making me drained they are torture to much and i am sorry for myself i let people doing that to me 😭💔. Day by day , night by night i keep thinking too much and thats make me dizzy everyday , I keep asking to myself WHY ARE YOU HURTING ? I am not the one who betrayed , I am not the one who cheated why i am hurting if people doing that to me! When i am free to go somewhere else and meet another better person. Why i am forcing myself staying in the person life who never wanted me and all he does to me is hurting me everyday. MySelf can we just let go ? I am so damage now , my mental health is damage already, My emotional is damage also even my physical. Can we just let go and walk away i am tired carry this feeling everyday. Being lied to , betrayed to , disrespected to and treat like a shiit. He didn't treat me well and can't care of me so why should i stayed ? Myself pls. think about it i am dying inside now and my heart pls. agree to my brain said to you. Let's stop being fool & stupid cause i am so tired now. I don't have any reason to stay any longer anymore. I give up !